One Day...It Will Make Sense

Lately I've noticed that I am not a lot of women's type, and for some reason it took me a while to come to that conclusion.  Or maybe I came to the idea a long time ago but wasn't ready to face it in my own head.  Call it arrogance or what have you, but I consider myself to be a good man...a good person overall.  After observing people, whether it be in person, or via Facebook, I came the realization that maybe I desire the wrong type of women AND, maybe some of these ladies just have have poor standards.  I guess they go hand in hand.


It just angers me to no end sometimes.  Beautiful woman...good job...her own home..nice car....shitty good for nothing below average man.  Now look at that equation....go ahead look at it.  If you have any kind of sense in your head you should be having the same type of reaction that I have..WHAT THE FUCK??


Now it has been explained to me that being "light skinned" and "talking proper" puts me in a category of being soft, too proper, not "thug enough."   To the women that say that to me and honestly think that,  get your mind right.  That or just kill yourself.  Yes, these things are said to me on the regular.  Now I will take ownership over my portion of the blame here as far as, Why the hell am I attracted to these types of women?  However, I think in these ladies I see a certain type of strong personality that I like.  I mean, I know for fact it takes a strong women to be able to handle me.  So maybe that's it.  You may find that reasoning to be bullshit....but ...yeah.


Bottom line...I grew up in a 2 parent home.  My father worked hard, stayed on the job for 40 years.  Took care of me and my 2 sisters and was a model husband to my mother.  These are the things I grew up seeing.  I didn't see my father call my mother a bitch, or a hoe, never did he put his hands on her.  He respected her, loved her, honored her, and took delight in her strength as a women.  However my mothers role in that was important as well, in that she ALLOWED him to do these things, and EXCEPTED it with love and joy.  These are things I just don't see anymore, at least in my generation.  Women are hard minded and thrive on men that they shouldn't.


All I know how to be is me...that's how I will stay.  If you waste time on someone or something that has no positive effect in your life...what are you saying about yourself...what value do you have on your own life?




Peace~&~Love