Friend or Foe 2012

My Dad always told me that as I climb up in age, I would be able to count my TRUE friends on one hand.  At the time of him telling me this, there was no way that I thought that was true.  I was only 14, who at that age can imagine not having a ton of friends.  I'm 28 now, and  I can say that he was right.

I want to be clear about something...I have been through literal hell this last year and a half.  For those of you that read this and are on my Facebook, it may not seem like it because I am always cracking jokes on my statuses.  However, 2011 was a complete nightmare for me.  I went through a lot with my family, and there were some other issues I was dealing with.  It was a pure roller coaster, and life is just now getting back to the norm, whatever the norm may be.  I say this with humility and sincerity that I am in no way arrogant, nor do I put myself over anyone.  With as much as I have dealt with, I am in no position to do things like that.  With that being said,  why the hell do I have the haters that I do??  It's crazy!!!  I lost a best friend in the past year for no good reason whatsoever other than he was jealous.  He admitted it in an argument.  Jealous of what??  Grown men should not behave that way...at all.  It's just mind boggling!!  I am me, nothing more, nothing less.  My motivation in succeeding is my 2 kids.  They mean everything, they deserve the best that I can provide.  I don't push myself for personal gain.  It's hard to succeed in this world and pursue your dreams.  Hell it's hard enough just trying to survive and make ends meet.  But when those two kids of mine were born, it became about them, ALL ABOUT THEM.

I have been able to define what real friends are this past year.  Real friends aren't just in your presence during your high moments.  They don't call or stick around when they need something.  Real friends aren't just there for your victories, but they are they during your failures.  They are there in your moments of weakness.  I'm thankful for the few that I do have.  They know who they are.