Blessed To Have Them....

I think to myself a lot of times about how far I've come in life...the things that I've endured...the things that I still have yet to learn to better myself as a person, as a father, as a man.  One thing I've always wanted to do is make my parents proud.  At the same time I have this burning desire to pay them back for everything they have ever done for me.  They have disagreed  with certain things that have happened in my life, but overall they are the best parents that anyone can ask for.  This entry is dedicated to them, and EVERYTHING that is good about them.  


I have no reservations about saying that I'm a momma's boy.  I am...to the heart.  Pamela Cruz Smith is an amazing wife, mother, and women.  She has a heart of gold and does not hesitate to help anyone that she cares about.  I'm her only son, she reminds me of that all the time.  The conversation normally goes, You're my favorite son."  "Mom...I'm your only son."  I tell you what though, she means everything to me.  She has always worked hard, been there for me whenever.  We have had our battles in the past, but what do you expect from an emotional Hispanic woman lol.  Our relationship has struggled in recent years for the fact that my life has been going through changes, but she's my mother, and I love her unconditionally, and with the world that we live in and the way things are, we can't afford to let differences of opinions come between us.  I love you Mom.

Just this past April...Odis Clyde Smith....my father retired from a 40 year career at Caterpillar.  40 years of waking up at 4:30am, going to a job that he didn't necessarily like, but had a wife and 3 kids to provide for.  He did this without complaining, and without hesitation.  That's what the measure of a man is.  That's a man that loves his family.  I only hope and pray that I can become half the man that my father is.  He's another one that has been there for me through everything.  I know I say that a lot and it may be common sense to some people to say that "He's your father or she's your mother, why wouldn't they be there for you?"  But for me....for me....they have done more than I can ever express in words.  I am thankful to have Odis Smith as a father.  I'm blessed.

No words are good enough...my expressions are limited because nothing I can say or do in my eyes atleast, will ever be able to express my full appreciation for the types of people my parents are.  I just want to say that I love them for giving more of themselves for the benefit of me and my sisters.  I love you both.

~Peace & Love~